I wonder why
Why I fall in love
Why my heart beats faster
As I see you passing by each time
Why I feel my face is turning reddish fever
Am I sick
Why all the sudden my body feel warm
Is it because of you


I wonder why
Why I always see your eyes sparkling
Your green eyes
Your soft skin
Your soft and dry lips
Why do I see all of this
Am I falling in love with you


I wonder why
Years and months have gone by
We were like an unbreakable Ice
But time changes us all
We now head our own ways
Even though we might hurt each others in the future


I wonder why
I wonder why I regret...
Regret...Of...Falling in love with you my dear...
Tell me why....
Please tell me why...
I want to know why....
Why...


That I loved you for years and months
Every hour, every minute and every second
Of my life and breath that I felt
I suddenly felt that ..
We are getting apart...
Day by day...
Night by night...
I tried to stop it from making it more bigger
But...
My effort were useless against it....
I have loss all of my will to protect our love
And it was too late to cure it...


I now know...
That...Love is painful
For me and you

We cannot be together until the very end
Of our last breath


I now know..
It hurts...
So much hurt...
So much pain that I felt
I am...Truly sorry...


Sorry for giving the love you always wanted
This late my dear...
I'm sorry..
I truly am...
I wish we could be together again like the old days
Back to our glory years of love
We dance and cuddle each other to warm ourselves
From the cold breeze that was blown on every night


I now...
Felt only cold...
Cold..Dark..Sorrowful..Lonely night
I...stare up above to the starry nights
And hope...
That..
I will again felt the warmth that you gave to me
In my heart and to my soul also..


But now...
I'm only waiting for your return
To my open cold pale arms
That I always whispers in the wind
"Please..Come back my beloved..."
Every night before I go to bed
Even though sometimes I never slept for the whole night


Our memories...
It haunts me in my once peaceful slumber..
But now..
Every time I lay back and closes my eyes
The only thing that I see is...
Your face, your smile..
That used to cheer me up
But now only makes me wanted to sob and cry
"Why...Why you left.."
I mutter to myself every time
"Was I too childish...Am I too rough to you?
Please..I only did that so you can notice and love me more
I only wanted to be loved by you...
I wish for nothing else my love..
I only wish for your return...
To my empty once warm arms
Is my wish a big burden to you..
Do I not give you all of my attention to only you...
Am I....not..pretty..enough for you my beloved..
Did I hurt you..
..But the only on I see that is hurt is...Me...
Am I wrong..
If I am....
Please hit me...Please scold me...
Please tell me..."


I now...
See you with someone else..
The new replacement in my place...
That person looks more pretty and charming...
I though to myself and I look at myself with disgust in the mirror
"I...Wish you...A very..Happy life my love..
May...your life always be very cheerful and happiness 
...I...Bid you..
My...saddest yet sorrowful fair well....
My beloved......I ....Love...You....Always...."

Name: ZaRiNa

Famous as: Erich

Birthday: July 12

Occupation:

~> Hobbyist-Artist (night of weekdays,rarely now)
~> Full time hobbyist-artist / Gamer (weekends,now with books in arms)

Status:



Relationship:UnKnOwN

Hobbies: Swimming, Eating, Sleeping, Sketching, Writing, Blogging, Reading~!

Where YOU can find me(usually):

~>DeviantART (link)<~ I am always here

~>Tumblr(link)

My email : zarina.jabeli@yahoo.com

Favourite GAMES!: Resident Evil 5 and 6, Splatter House, Shadow Tag, Slender The 8 Pages, Sims 3, Fatal Frame 2 and 3, Obscure 2, Alice Madness Returns, Sleeping Dogs, Harry Potter and The Half-Blooded Prince, Bayonetta, Final Fantasy 10, Silent Hill 2 and 3(SCARY AND DISTURBING), Ju-On The Grudge, Calling, Zombi-U, Assassin Creed game series, Thief, Lollipop Chainsaw, Bioshock 2, Battlefield 4, Modern Warfare 3,Splinter Cell: Blacklist, Left 4 Dead 1 & 2, Dead Space 3

Favourite books: True Singapore Ghost Stories all series, Valdmire Todd all series, ZOM-B, Journey To The Centre Of The Earth, Mysterious Island, Around The world In 80 Days, From Earth To The Moon, Stephen King; The Shining, Assassin's Creed book series, How To Kill Your Boss

Favourite Gaming Platform: XBox 360(my soulmate), Wii Nitendo, PS2, PC

Tools of Trade(Writing): Notebook, Papers, Pen, Pencil, Eraser, Laptop, Window Microsoft, Internet (the mother of all research and good inspiration of musics to my ears~!)

Tools of Trade(Art): Pencil, Paper, Sketch book, Bamboo Tablet, Photoshop CS6, Phone Camera, My left hand (That is how I create the arts)

Favourite style using for Arts: Anime/Chibi (My very own style)

Favourite Quote(Customer): Please don't rush me! I'm a slow worker but the result is amazing if you wait and I have my own style!

Favourite Quote(Personal use): The harder you're struggling, the closer you are to the success.

Sincerely,
The Artist,

ZaRinA/masako12

Hey there~! This is my Request/Commission section, if you want anything that involves in anime or chibi concept art style, please just ask away by clicking on the 'Request button here'~!




REMEMBER!

If you want any request, you SHOULD CHECK the artist drawings first because not every artist have the same methods in doing their work. Some of them uses bases like the professionals do, some of them just sketch it all up but still look nice in the eye, and some of them uses Chibis to maximize the cuteness of their characters. So do some research first. Any more further question about the request, you can just ask away in the comment box section and I will reply back to you A.S.A.P.

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PLEASE READ THIS BEFORE ASKING FOR REQUESTS

Intro about the artist;

My style are mostly in animes and chibis. Sadly, I cannot do any specific backgrounds and poses, because it is a bit hard (I'm still inexperience,okay?). I'm so sorry to inform you about that, I hope you are still with me on this.

If you could, please tell me about your lovely character(s)(obviously you Original Characters), sometimes their story can give me great ideas on how they look like or even their 'auras'.

I only do sketches and digital arts for my works. No, I don't use paint nor crayons because it is very messy. So I won't take anymore chances on messing up work that is or are already messed up.

My drawing style;

Animes and Chibis (mostly sketch or half coloured,meaning I don't colour the skin)

Types and tools that I use to do my work;

~>Traditional Art;

Pencil, Pen and Paper(A4 or Sketch paper)

~>Digital Art;

Photoshop CS6

What I CAN draw;

Original characters <~ I usually do this type of request

Fan Arts (but I need reference and the conditions)

Dark, Bloody, Gory, Adorable, Fluff, etc...

Light yaoi

Capturing the moments (For example, your OC screamed when he or she sees something he or she is afraid of.)

Portraits (I will try my best on this type)



What I CANNOT or DO NOT draw; (sorry about this, folks)

Hardcore Yaoi/Yuri,Hentai

Full robotic body parts (That is very detailed! So, I must decline your request)

Clean/clear digital line art (I have a shaky hand =.=")

Muscular figures (It is too complicated thus, I cannot once more! )

Other than cats and dogs, I cannot do animals.

Detailed portrait/Realism art (Have mercy on my art skills...)


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My anime sketch style




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My chibi sketch style




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My digital art style





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HOW TO GET STARTED


STEP 1

Please send me an email with a title of 'Request'.(My email address is ; zarina.jabeli@yahoo.com )


STEP 2

Give me some details about what you want for your art commission/request.(So I know what I need to do in my work)


STEP 3

Please fill in this forum for your Request / Commission; (This is for OCs if you want them to be commissioned)

Character's name:
Commission type: Anime or Chibi (please choose)
Instruction : (example: eye color,accessories,scar(if any),tattoo (if any),clothes design etc..)
Picture reference: (This will help me better if you have it)
Character description:
(exp: grumpy/ cheerful/ happy-go-lucky etc...) Email address: (So I can send it to you more easily)

Before getting to work, let have some chit-chat about our business together. Don't worry, I am a very friendly little girl. I'm not going to eat you up, I promise that.

Please be patience for your Artwork.

If you want to check more of my work of arts, please go to my 'DevianART' button section and check out my Gallery.

Rot and Flesh (novel)

Summary

Chapter 0

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Short stories



The Killer Inside(Mind of a twisted girl)

The Killer Inside sequel (Creepypasta included)

Help Me!(Slender Horror)

Who Are You? (Slender twisted tale)

Give Her Back (Sad short story)

(NEW)Foka and E'den : Mission Begins (Assassin's Creed OC story)

Poems



Painful memories (sad love poem)

Slender (The truth about the faceless man)

Memories (Our Childhood)

My Brother Is 'Special'(L4D Hunter inspired)

Author's note

Welcome to my Comic Section I hope you have a fun day reading my comics. Let's stay it short, this section will be updated every weeks/ days or even months if I made comics. So check it out regularly for the new comic popups~!




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